liss

Wed, 23 Apr 2008 19:07:00 GMT

i hated this semester.

its going to be a year on the 27th.
im still heart broken.

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 20:01:28 GMT

i want out.

Sun, 23 Dec 2007 01:52:35 GMT

i'd really love to move to florida.
i adore it here.
if i pick a career and find a kick ass school,
its going to be peace out michigan
:)

i'll be home in less than 24 hours..boo

Wed, 07 Nov 2007 18:48:26 GMT

i forget that this is college.

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 04:05:59 GMT

i shouldn't have dropped all my bad habits.

Thu, 04 Oct 2007 01:24:30 GMT

fuck off.

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 03:18:20 GMT

i almost posted that at 11:11.
fuck you 11:11.

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 03:17:31 GMT

why can't this just be a bad dream?

I love you..

Tue, 11 Sep 2007 19:09:38 GMT

September is killing.
i hate it.

i miss Shane, I don't think I'll make it very far without him.

i hate my life.

Sat, 04 Aug 2007 05:09:08 GMT

i got offered a job... now im majorly confused as to where im going in life. this sucks.

workingggg

Sat, 14 Jul 2007 14:56:09 GMT

so i finally get to work for a couple weeks this summer, i may actaully get a decent check. an update on life is not even necessary. this summer is not even a little bit like last summer. i don't party hardly at all, i work, i sleep, and go to concerts. end of story.

i quit doctor gordon's office which turned out to be the best idea i've ever had, contrary to popular belief. i've been at emagine for almost 2 years, so its been a long time since i've been the new girl. i worked at dr. gs office for 5 months and had no chance of never not being the new girl, and i hated it. no hard feelings though everything just kinda hit the fan all to once. maybe they'll get over themselves after they realize i wasn't dedicated, and really didn't provide much for their creative office team. i don't work well with only a few people, i have to be able to branch out & move around hence the reason i adore emagine so much even though it can be a piece of shit.

alright lonestar last night was amazing, after having such a bad month or two it actually made me feel really good. especially when i can sing all those sappy love songs to my bffl jason and make him feel very uncomfortable.

day #11

Sun, 08 Jul 2007 05:50:52 GMT

i hate the fact that your gone.

Sun, 27 May 2007 17:46:20 GMT

fuck this.

Thu, 24 May 2007 03:21:02 GMT

Is that seat taken
Congratulations
Would you like to take a walk with me

My mind it kind of goes fast
I try to slow it down for you
I think I'd love to take a drive
I want to give you something
I've been wanting to give to you for years
My heart

My heart, my pain won't cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu
My heart won't take this cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu

I came to see the light in my best friend
You seemed as happy as you'd ever been
My chance of being open was broken
And now you're Mrs. him.

My words they don't come out right
But I'll try to say I'm happy for you
I think I'm going to take that drive
I want to give you something
I've been wanting to give to you for years
My hearts

My heart, my pain won't cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu
My heart
My heart won't take this cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu

And I can't change this
I can never take it back
But now I can't change your mind
(You left me)
And I can't this
I can never take this back
But now I can't change your mind
can't change your mind
(You left me)
Can't change you mind
(You left me)
(You left me)
(You left me)
(You left me)

Go away
Make it go away
Please.

Fri, 30 Mar 2007 01:55:51 GMT

im so frustrated.

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 00:49:18 GMT

well choir festival was a success.
i am still tired though.
i got a new cute cartilage piercing.
i love it.
maybe pictures later?

ps. i <3 melissssa
she's my fave.

Mon, 05 Mar 2007 02:15:24 GMT

i've run out of places to run.
i can no longer hide my face.
i hate my life.

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 04:50:49 GMT

happy birthday to myself in 10 minutes.

pictures?

Sun, 18 Feb 2007 04:34:33 GMT

katz?
haha. yes.

this is what happens when you're alone on a saturday night.
its okay though.

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 01:42:45 GMT

new job was a success.
im happy with it.
im less stressed there and it's only a few people.
i really like everyone, and the patients are nice.
emagine keeps getting more and more distant.
i know i'm doing it to myself, but i need the break.
i pretty much requested the entire month of february off.
it was really for the best

haven't been to school except for monday theres been
to much going on, and i didnt feel like dealing with it.
i'm leaving to go upnorth to fetch my mother since i
unwillingly had to leave her there sunday.

i'm happy all around, i just miss everything being normal.

happiness, what a strange feeling.

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 00:39:58 GMT

i'm ridiculously excited, and happy at the moment. i got accepted into college, grandma is getting out of the hospital, and i got a second job. i'm the newest member of Gordon Chiropractic, i'll get to be a Chiropractors Assistant. Basically, i'm the cute girl at the desk that greets patients, takes them to their rooms, and assists them in anyway possible. Right now its only Saturday morning which is perfect for me, because there is no way in hell i'm ready to let go of Emagine, even though i hate it 9 times out of 10. this is exactly what i've been looking for, i pretty much gave up the job search and bam an old friend needed some extra help and here i am. the job may possibly even open up with the summer time so i could get more hours, and at $8 an hour im not going to complain.

this new job could actually open doors. i'm a college bound senior, i still have no clue what i want to do with a professional career, but this is giving me an idea about the medical field and office work. i'm thinking maybe office management, or business management.

as far as life goes, i've been sick for almost two weeks. it was getting outrageous so of course i made my 2nd or 3rd doctors appointment, by the time i got in there i was pissed and pretty much i was like if i don't get better i'm not going to promise that you'll have your life. we got it figured out that it's some sinus thing and that the anti-viral meds i have now will take care of it.

grams is getting out of the hospital. she is a lot better, i'm taking this weekend off and going to visit. probably not a good idea because i'm sick but almost losing her made me realize that i'm not a good grand daughter. i couldn't even remember the last thing i said to her, and she was at my house the day before her heart attack. i have to do something to make things right, possibly moving in with her this summer and taking a summer college class at ACC.

i'm done now.
i miss my friends, i feel that i haven't seen them in weeks.
my birthday is almost here it's the 22nd :)
15 days, and i'm legal!

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 06:36:38 GMT

happiness is having the best friends in the entire world.
tonight was by far the best night i've had in a very long time and its going down in the books as one of the best nights i'll ever have in 2007. stacii, julie, and i made dinner for a couple of our boys. we all sat down at a candle lit dinner table and ate together. it was very amazing and made me the happiest person possible. i love life at the moment, i'm completely content.
plus i'll be legal in 18 days?
haha yes mark it on your calendars.
love love love youuu.

k-mill and aldea i miss you both so much.
lets hang out please?

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 20:57:44 GMT

sad face.

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 15:42:41 GMT

i adore you.

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 02:01:03 GMT

i hate christmas, and i always have.
i'm not looking forward to tomorrow.

i already opened my presents.
here's the plus and minus of the last few days.

+sleeping
-working
+smoking
+opening presents:
+ten things i hate about you
+perfume - victorias secret, lucky, and wonderful
+new darker blue converse
+gift cards - kohls, twelve oaks, borders, and old navy
+silver chain for my necklace
+easy button from staples (it makes me want to kill myself)
+lotions from my aunt
+make up things
+lots of food
+mucho family time
-falling in the shower & pretty much cracking my head open
-crying the last couple days
-not being happy
-having a headache
+new years is almost here

this last week was killer for school, pretty much skipped a few hours everyday & completely skipped friday and went shopping for my mom. i had a choir concert on wednesday and i hung out with tyler till about two in the morning. missed a few hours on thursday morning and then did another choir performance for administration. got to hang out with a few other people i haven't in a long time. got breakfast with jason, and caught up with him.

i have a huge welt on my head, it's bruised and it fucking hurts. all i want to do is go and hang out with my friends, but daddy doesn't think it's a good idea. i miss everyone, especially k-mill & aldea. i wasnt in the mood to go to the rock stars and groupies party but i had a nice time just playing euchure with troy's family. then last night i hung out with erika and saw "night at the museum" and then hung out with the boys and todd and kory's. it was nice being the only girl, i really missed them. we watched quite possibly the most manly movie on the face of the earth, Rambo The First Blood. that's some high quality film right there. i haven't been able to just relax in awhile, it felt good to just lay on the couch with my favorite t.o'b. there's nothing better than spending time with people you love, just watching movies and fucking kickin' it.

stace face is gone for the weekend, and julie is around. wish i could be able to see them this week. i work a lot, and i'm going to the bob seager concert on the 28th, i'm pretty excited. tomorrow is going to be a family day, i guess were going to the movies and just hanging around. mallory is home & i'd like to spend some quality time with her, but that most likely wont happen. it's time for sleep though, and i have nothing to look forward to in the morning so i'll most likely sleep, unless this head pain wakes me or i die in my sleep.

merry christmas.